God is amazing.
As I talked on the phone with a close friend, I tried to
explain the things that God has done in my life. That is the one word I kept
coming back to.
It’s just not enough.
Oh were the skies of parchment made…
God has made it clear to me that I have spent far to long focusing on what has been already done.
I've been so consumed in God 'fixing things' that I was too blind to see that it was me keeping Him from doing so. I guess I expected Him to do it my way.
But then He wouldn't be God if that was how it worked.
All I wanted was to be 'held'. It was nice. To rest in the arms of God.
And what could possibly be wrong with it?
Hear me out.
The problem was that I nursed my wound longer than
I should have. It was making me extremely self-centered. My emotions were in the driver's seat and they were taking me for a ride.
It’s like when one of the kids gets running too fast and
they fall. They scratch their knee, so I give them a band-aid and kiss it
better. They may even need a kiss better the next day.
After a week when it’s all but gone and they still want a
new band-aid, I’ll be a little skeptical but I’ll give it to them anyway
because I love them… and I wouldn’t withhold something good from them. Besides,
do I mind the extra kisses? Most definitely not. I like kisses.
But there are times when I tell them enough already.
Its time to put on their big kid undies.
Shake it off, tough
it out, and get on with their happy little lives.
I tell them this for their own good, of course.
Why let a little scrape take precedence over the sun in the sky, a
nice warm cookie fresh from the oven, or a trip to the park?
Get my gist?
A wise lady said that if something was getting me down, then
I needed to get my eyes off myself and find a way to serve someone else.
Be the blessing.
Lesson number two this year.
Turns out that God doesn't let go of my hand just because I stop moping around, and I can still come to the garden even if I’m not melting in my
I have so much to tell.
This is an exciting season of my life and I can't wait to see what amazing thing God is going to do next!